Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
Get In the Boat: Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man, part 8
In part 2.8, I withdraw into abrupt seclusion to understand my lack of joy with Ryann’s plans to return, I figure out a way to forgive my mother, police come into the apartment unbidden, I develop a newfound admiration and respect for Ryann’s courage, I am completely confused by her responses to me, I am worried for our son Ise, and I put my fear of cyber attacks aside.
This is the story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse.
TRIGGER WARNINGS: None this time.
The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.
Get In the Boat
I. Things Fall Apart
Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood
Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI
Mentions:
Origin of Plot of Rytius RecordsThe Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
Photography
Plato’s Timaeus
Myth of Atrahasis
Epic of Gilgamesh
Descent of Ishtar
Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion
Mentions:
IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
“Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)“Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.
Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”
Mentions:
“The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
Weird Emails
II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man
The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
Mentions:
“The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation
I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars
Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure
Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia
Mentions:
The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
“Thoughts on Barbie”
“SCHARP Behavioral Health”Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion
Mentions:
Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
In A Different Voice (1982)
Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
“Thoughts on Barbie”Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
Mentions:
Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror“Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”
III. What Really Happened