<![CDATA[Dispatches from New Dithyrambia: Get In the Boat]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/s/get-in-the-boathttps://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!qYPN!,w_256,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe442095a-346a-4694-8c56-6d8c2b880077_1630x1802.pngDispatches from New Dithyrambia: Get In the Boathttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/s/get-in-the-boatSubstackTue, 07 Apr 2026 09:52:28 GMT<![CDATA[Oops! I Lied! 10 Felonies]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/oops-i-lied-10-felonieshttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/oops-i-lied-10-feloniesSat, 08 Feb 2025 00:18:07 GMTIn this postscript, part 6 of Get In the Boat, I come clean about some misinformation in part 5, The Three Stooges.

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This is the real-life, true-crime detective story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse, by sending me on a six-month investigation into organized crime in my South Central Los Angeles neighborhood.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: None.

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

Buy Me a Coffee

Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

  9. Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut
    Mentions:

    The Tongva Nation

    Theresa Stewart-Ambo and Kelly Leah Stewart, “From Tovaangar to the University of California, Los Angeles”, American Indian Culture and Research Journal (2023)

    Palm Tree Proletarians

    Accusatory Texts From Judy Scypion

    Mafia State

    LAPD Black Officers’ Association

  10. Fatherhood, Brotherhood, and a Successful Extortion

    Mentions:
    “Skippity Skippity Dip Dip,” one of Ise’s melodies that I recorded on October 29, 2023.

  11. Tradecraft, Attempted Murder, Perfect Gifts, and the Neighborhood Watch
    Mentions:
    “Neighborhood Watch Details”

  12. Drug Dealers, Intelligence Sharing, Forgiveness, and Angel

    Mentions:

    “Samson and the Sweet, Sweet Taste of Justice”

    Text of Email Sent to LAPD Christmas Eve

    Cosmogony/Apocalypse

  13. Total Blame, Spidey Sense, Ancient Aliens, and Taking the Piss

  14. Straight-Edge Spidey, LAFD, Combo Poisons, and Martin Lawrence

    Mentions:

    Ken Kesey, author of One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest (1962)

    Guy Debord, Comments on the Society of the Spectacle (1988)

    Fredy Perlman, Against His-Story, Against Leviathan (1983)

    Martin Lawrence’s May 1996 arrest

    Dave Chappelle on Martin Lawrence and “stress”

  15. Lookouts, School Zones, 911, Henhouse Foxes and Bad Faith

    Mentions:

    Judy’s Accusatory Texts of January 11, 2024

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024

  16. Performative Orgiastics, Cruisin’, Cyber Pimps, and a Failure to Communicate

    Mentions:

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024
    Ryann’s View of My Psychology (Fall 2023)
    Our Mid–January 2024 Chats About Reunion, etc.

  17. A Parallax View of Welfare Graft and Poverty Pimping: SCHARP and Ideal Program Services

    Mentions:

    California Information Practices Act of 1977

    California Fair Information Practice Principles (“FIPPs”)

    OECD FIPPs

    Dialectical Behavior Therapy

    California Code of Regulations for Mental Health Providers

    The Lanterman Developmental Disabilities Act

    Lanterman Definitions

    Crisis Intervention for the Developmentally Disabled (“Locked Facilities List”)

    Juking Safety Stats in Auto

    March 6, 2024 Open Letter to Regulators on SCHARP Behavioral Health

III. What A Week

  1. Nina Simone, Object Relations, Fin-de-Siècle Vienna, and Transference
    Mentions:
    Melanie Klein, The Psychoanalysis of Children (1932)

    Sigmund Freud, Fragments of an Analysis of a Case of Hysteria (1905)

    “Dora” on Wikipedia

    Otto Kernberg, Hatred, Emptiness and Hope (2023)

    Beatrice Beebe, “Joining Your Baby’s Distress Moments” (2023)

    Beatrice Beebe, “Decoding the Non-Verbal Language of Babies: Part 1” (2019)

    Frank Yeomans, “Transference-Focused Psychotherapy: An Evidence-Based Psychodynamic Therapy for BPD” (2008)

  2. My Total Disillusionment

    Mentions:

    January 30, 2024 Texts with Judy Scypion

  3. Ise’s Safety, Trying to Help, and Going Deep Cover

    Mentions:

    Judy’s “Fox of Crenshaw” Texts

    Texts With Ryann About Cough Medicine

    My Notes For February 1, 2024, Structured Convo

  4. Moral Injury, My Ultimatum, Intergenerational Trauma, and 2Kute2Die

    Mentions:
    My Notes For February 3, 2024, Structured Convo

IV. Untangling The Web

Mentions:
Ryann Suggests I Learn About Narcissistic Abuse From Lee Hammock
Silvia Federici Discussing Her Work
Valerie Solanas, S.C.U.M. Manifesto (Wikipedia)
“Radical Acceptance” and Pro-Illness Therapy
The Doctrine of Threefold Mindfulness According to Jaws: “Radical Honesty” as Pro-Illness Therapy

V. The Three Stooges

Mentions:
Part 2.16: “Performative Orgiastics, Cruisin’, Cyber Pimps, and a Failure to Communicate”
Part 1.1: “Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood”
$TSLAQ (Wikipedia)
Elon’s Spies
Uber’s Spies Musk Hired
Martin Tripp Overview
Tesla Cellphone Hacking
Doxxing MontanaSkeptic
Tesla Drops Suit Against skabooshka
Everybody’s Favorite Asset: Elon Musk and Tesla
Part 2.3: “Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation”
Part 1.3: “Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion”

VI. POSTSCRIPT: Oops! I Lied! 10 Felonies

Mentions:

Jai Barksdale–Ryann Scypion Correspondence, 2017–20

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]]><![CDATA[The Three Stooges]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/the-three-stoogeshttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/the-three-stoogesTue, 28 Jan 2025 10:58:14 GMTIn this final chapter of this incredible story, I pull back to explain what really happened, and I identify the three stooges behind it all.

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This is the real-life, true-crime detective story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse, by sending me on a six-month investigation into organized crime in my South Central Los Angeles neighborhood.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: None.

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

Buy Me a Coffee

Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

  9. Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut
    Mentions:

    The Tongva Nation

    Theresa Stewart-Ambo and Kelly Leah Stewart, “From Tovaangar to the University of California, Los Angeles”, American Indian Culture and Research Journal (2023)

    Palm Tree Proletarians

    Accusatory Texts From Judy Scypion

    Mafia State

    LAPD Black Officers’ Association

  10. Fatherhood, Brotherhood, and a Successful Extortion

    Mentions:
    “Skippity Skippity Dip Dip,” one of Ise’s melodies that I recorded on October 29, 2023.

  11. Tradecraft, Attempted Murder, Perfect Gifts, and the Neighborhood Watch
    Mentions:
    “Neighborhood Watch Details”

  12. Drug Dealers, Intelligence Sharing, Forgiveness, and Angel

    Mentions:

    “Samson and the Sweet, Sweet Taste of Justice”

    Text of Email Sent to LAPD Christmas Eve

    Cosmogony/Apocalypse

  13. Total Blame, Spidey Sense, Ancient Aliens, and Taking the Piss

  14. Straight-Edge Spidey, LAFD, Combo Poisons, and Martin Lawrence

    Mentions:

    Ken Kesey, author of One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest (1962)

    Guy Debord, Comments on the Society of the Spectacle (1988)

    Fredy Perlman, Against His-Story, Against Leviathan (1983)

    Martin Lawrence’s May 1996 arrest

    Dave Chappelle on Martin Lawrence and “stress”

  15. Lookouts, School Zones, 911, Henhouse Foxes and Bad Faith

    Mentions:

    Judy’s Accusatory Texts of January 11, 2024

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024

  16. Performative Orgiastics, Cruisin’, Cyber Pimps, and a Failure to Communicate

    Mentions:

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024
    Ryann’s View of My Psychology (Fall 2023)
    Our Mid–January 2024 Chats About Reunion, etc.

  17. A Parallax View of Welfare Graft and Poverty Pimping: SCHARP and Ideal Program Services

    Mentions:

    California Information Practices Act of 1977

    California Fair Information Practice Principles (“FIPPs”)

    OECD FIPPs

    Dialectical Behavior Therapy

    California Code of Regulations for Mental Health Providers

    The Lanterman Developmental Disabilities Act

    Lanterman Definitions

    Crisis Intervention for the Developmentally Disabled (“Locked Facilities List”)

    Juking Safety Stats in Auto

    March 6, 2024 Open Letter to Regulators on SCHARP Behavioral Health

III. What A Week

  1. Nina Simone, Object Relations, Fin-de-Siècle Vienna, and Transference
    Mentions:
    Melanie Klein, The Psychoanalysis of Children (1932)

    Sigmund Freud, Fragments of an Analysis of a Case of Hysteria (1905)

    “Dora” on Wikipedia

    Otto Kernberg, Hatred, Emptiness and Hope (2023)

    Beatrice Beebe, “Joining Your Baby’s Distress Moments” (2023)

    Beatrice Beebe, “Decoding the Non-Verbal Language of Babies: Part 1” (2019)

    Frank Yeomans, “Transference-Focused Psychotherapy: An Evidence-Based Psychodynamic Therapy for BPD” (2008)

  2. My Total Disillusionment

    Mentions:

    January 30, 2024 Texts with Judy Scypion

  3. Ise’s Safety, Trying to Help, and Going Deep Cover

    Mentions:

    Judy’s “Fox of Crenshaw” Texts

    Texts With Ryann About Cough Medicine

    My Notes For February 1, 2024, Structured Convo

  4. Moral Injury, My Ultimatum, Intergenerational Trauma, and 2Kute2Die

    Mentions:
    My Notes For February 3, 2024, Structured Convo

IV. Untangling The Web

Mentions:
Ryann Suggests I Learn About Narcissistic Abuse From Lee Hammock
Silvia Federici Discussing Her Work
Valerie Solanas, S.C.U.M. Manifesto (Wikipedia)
“Radical Acceptance” and Pro-Illness Therapy
The Doctrine of Threefold Mindfulness According to Jaws: “Radical Honesty” as Pro-Illness Therapy

V. The Three Stooges

Mentions:
Part 2.16: “Performative Orgiastics, Cruisin’, Cyber Pimps, and a Failure to Communicate”
Part 1.1: “Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood”
$TSLAQ (Wikipedia)
Elon’s Spies
Uber’s Spies Musk Hired
Martin Tripp Overview
Tesla Cellphone Hacking
Doxxing MontanaSkeptic
Tesla Drops Suit Against skabooshka
Everybody’s Favorite Asset: Elon Musk and Tesla
Part 2.3: “Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation”
Part 1.3: “Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion”

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]]><![CDATA[Untangling the Web]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/untangling-the-webhttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/untangling-the-webTue, 28 Jan 2025 00:45:47 GMTIn section 4, I file for divorce to enforce my custodial rights, and I finally understand what is happening in our neighborhood, and I explain just how my art helped me survive this experience.

Buy Rytius Records From Ingram

This is the real-life, true-crime detective story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse, by sending me on a six-month investigation into organized crime in my South Central Los Angeles neighborhood.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: Discussion of prostitution, rape, and violence.

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

Buy Me a Coffee

Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

  9. Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut
    Mentions:

    The Tongva Nation

    Theresa Stewart-Ambo and Kelly Leah Stewart, “From Tovaangar to the University of California, Los Angeles”, American Indian Culture and Research Journal (2023)

    Palm Tree Proletarians

    Accusatory Texts From Judy Scypion

    Mafia State

    LAPD Black Officers’ Association

  10. Fatherhood, Brotherhood, and a Successful Extortion

    Mentions:
    “Skippity Skippity Dip Dip,” one of Ise’s melodies that I recorded on October 29, 2023.

  11. Tradecraft, Attempted Murder, Perfect Gifts, and the Neighborhood Watch
    Mentions:
    “Neighborhood Watch Details”

  12. Drug Dealers, Intelligence Sharing, Forgiveness, and Angel

    Mentions:

    “Samson and the Sweet, Sweet Taste of Justice”

    Text of Email Sent to LAPD Christmas Eve

    Cosmogony/Apocalypse

  13. Total Blame, Spidey Sense, Ancient Aliens, and Taking the Piss

  14. Straight-Edge Spidey, LAFD, Combo Poisons, and Martin Lawrence

    Mentions:

    Ken Kesey, author of One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest (1962)

    Guy Debord, Comments on the Society of the Spectacle (1988)

    Fredy Perlman, Against His-Story, Against Leviathan (1983)

    Martin Lawrence’s May 1996 arrest

    Dave Chappelle on Martin Lawrence and “stress”

  15. Lookouts, School Zones, 911, Henhouse Foxes and Bad Faith

    Mentions:

    Judy’s Accusatory Texts of January 11, 2024

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024

  16. Performative Orgiastics, Cruisin’, Cyber Pimps, and a Failure to Communicate

    Mentions:

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024
    Ryann’s View of My Psychology (Fall 2023)
    Our Mid–January 2024 Chats About Reunion, etc.

  17. A Parallax View of Welfare Graft and Poverty Pimping: SCHARP and Ideal Program Services

    Mentions:

    California Information Practices Act of 1977

    California Fair Information Practice Principles (“FIPPs”)

    OECD FIPPs

    Dialectical Behavior Therapy

    California Code of Regulations for Mental Health Providers

    The Lanterman Developmental Disabilities Act

    Lanterman Definitions

    Crisis Intervention for the Developmentally Disabled (“Locked Facilities List”)

    Juking Safety Stats in Auto

    March 6, 2024 Open Letter to Regulators on SCHARP Behavioral Health

III. What A Week

  1. Nina Simone, Object Relations, Fin-de-Siècle Vienna, and Transference
    Mentions:
    Melanie Klein, The Psychoanalysis of Children (1932)

    Sigmund Freud, Fragments of an Analysis of a Case of Hysteria (1905)

    “Dora” on Wikipedia

    Otto Kernberg, Hatred, Emptiness and Hope (2023)

    Beatrice Beebe, “Joining Your Baby’s Distress Moments” (2023)

    Beatrice Beebe, “Decoding the Non-Verbal Language of Babies: Part 1” (2019)

    Frank Yeomans, “Transference-Focused Psychotherapy: An Evidence-Based Psychodynamic Therapy for BPD” (2008)

  2. My Total Disillusionment

    Mentions:

    January 30, 2024 Texts with Judy Scypion

  3. Ise’s Safety, Trying to Help, and Going Deep Cover

    Mentions:

    Judy’s “Fox of Crenshaw” Texts

    Texts With Ryann About Cough Medicine

    My Notes For February 1, 2024, Structured Convo

  4. Moral Injury, My Ultimatum, Intergenerational Trauma, and 2Kute2Die

    Mentions:
    My Notes For February 3, 2024, Structured Convo

IV. Untangling The Web

Mentions:
Ryann Suggests I Learn About Narcissistic Abuse From Lee Hammock
Silvia Federici Discussing Her Work
Valerie Solanas, S.C.U.M. Manifesto (Wikipedia)
“Radical Acceptance” and Pro-Illness Therapy
The Doctrine of Threefold Mindfulness According to Jaws: “Radical Honesty” as Pro-Illness Therapy

V. What Really Happened

]]><![CDATA[Moral Injury, My Ultimatum, Intergenerational Trauma, and 2Kute2Die]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/moral-injury-my-ultimatum-intergenerationalhttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/moral-injury-my-ultimatum-intergenerationalWed, 22 Jan 2025 17:01:25 GMTIn this conclusion of part 3, I come out of my tailspin, Ryann’s sex work in Houston endangers our son Ise, I give her an ultimatum, I attend a conference on intergenerational trauma, and I discover a video of Ise in a very dark corner of the Internet.

Buy Rytius Records From Amazon

This is the real-life, true-crime detective story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse, by sending me on a six-month investigation into organized crime in my South Central Los Angeles neighborhood.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: Discussion of prostitution and child sexual abuse.

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

Buy Me a Coffee

Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

  9. Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut
    Mentions:

    The Tongva Nation

    Theresa Stewart-Ambo and Kelly Leah Stewart, “From Tovaangar to the University of California, Los Angeles”, American Indian Culture and Research Journal (2023)

    Palm Tree Proletarians

    Accusatory Texts From Judy Scypion

    Mafia State

    LAPD Black Officers’ Association

  10. Fatherhood, Brotherhood, and a Successful Extortion

    Mentions:
    “Skippity Skippity Dip Dip,” one of Ise’s melodies that I recorded on October 29, 2023.

  11. Tradecraft, Attempted Murder, Perfect Gifts, and the Neighborhood Watch
    Mentions:
    “Neighborhood Watch Details”

  12. Drug Dealers, Intelligence Sharing, Forgiveness, and Angel

    Mentions:

    “Samson and the Sweet, Sweet Taste of Justice”

    Text of Email Sent to LAPD Christmas Eve

    Cosmogony/Apocalypse

  13. Total Blame, Spidey Sense, Ancient Aliens, and Taking the Piss

  14. Straight-Edge Spidey, LAFD, Combo Poisons, and Martin Lawrence

    Mentions:

    Ken Kesey, author of One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest (1962)

    Guy Debord, Comments on the Society of the Spectacle (1988)

    Fredy Perlman, Against His-Story, Against Leviathan (1983)

    Martin Lawrence’s May 1996 arrest

    Dave Chappelle on Martin Lawrence and “stress”

  15. Lookouts, School Zones, 911, Henhouse Foxes and Bad Faith

    Mentions:

    Judy’s Accusatory Texts of January 11, 2024

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024

  16. Performative Orgiastics, Cruisin’, Cyber Pimps, and a Failure to Communicate

    Mentions:

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024
    Ryann’s View of My Psychology (Fall 2023)
    Our Mid–January 2024 Chats About Reunion, etc.

  17. A Parallax View of Welfare Graft and Poverty Pimping: SCHARP and Ideal Program Services

    Mentions:

    California Information Practices Act of 1977

    California Fair Information Practice Principles (“FIPPs”)

    OECD FIPPs

    Dialectical Behavior Therapy

    California Code of Regulations for Mental Health Providers

    The Lanterman Developmental Disabilities Act

    Lanterman Definitions

    Crisis Intervention for the Developmentally Disabled (“Locked Facilities List”)

    Juking Safety Stats in Auto

    March 6, 2024 Open Letter to Regulators on SCHARP Behavioral Health

III. What A Week

  1. Nina Simone, Object Relations, Fin-de-Siècle Vienna, and Transference
    Mentions:
    Melanie Klein, The Psychoanalysis of Children (1932)

    Sigmund Freud, Fragments of an Analysis of a Case of Hysteria (1905)

    “Dora” on Wikipedia

    Otto Kernberg, Hatred, Emptiness and Hope (2023)

    Beatrice Beebe, “Joining Your Baby’s Distress Moments” (2023)

    Beatrice Beebe, “Decoding the Non-Verbal Language of Babies: Part 1” (2019)

    Frank Yeomans, “Transference-Focused Psychotherapy: An Evidence-Based Psychodynamic Therapy for BPD” (2008)

  2. My Total Disillusionment

    Mentions:

    January 30, 2024 Texts with Judy Scypion

  3. Ise’s Safety, Trying to Help, and Going Deep Cover

    Mentions:

    Judy’s “Fox of Crenshaw” Texts

    Texts With Ryann About Cough Medicine

    My Notes For February 1, 2024, Structured Convo

  4. Moral Injury, My Ultimatum, Intergenerational Trauma, and 2Kute2Die

    Mentions:
    My Notes For February 3, 2024, Structured Convo

IV. Untangling The Web

V. What Really Happened

]]><![CDATA[Ise’s Safety, Trying to Help, and Going Deep Cover]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/ises-safety-trying-to-help-and-goinghttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/ises-safety-trying-to-help-and-goingThu, 16 Jan 2025 23:10:56 GMTIn part 3.3, I become convinced that Judy has been poisoning Ise, I discover that Ryann has made a sex tape, I get myself STD-tested, I am bewildered by questions of moral culpability, I try to help Ryann, I try to find out whether I have deceived or hurt anyone, and I prepare to go undercover in a one-man sting operation.

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This is the real-life, true-crime detective story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse, by sending me on a six-month investigation into organized crime in my South Central Los Angeles neighborhood.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: Discussion of attempted child homicide.

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

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Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

  9. Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut
    Mentions:

    The Tongva Nation

    Theresa Stewart-Ambo and Kelly Leah Stewart, “From Tovaangar to the University of California, Los Angeles”, American Indian Culture and Research Journal (2023)

    Palm Tree Proletarians

    Accusatory Texts From Judy Scypion

    Mafia State

    LAPD Black Officers’ Association

  10. Fatherhood, Brotherhood, and a Successful Extortion

    Mentions:
    “Skippity Skippity Dip Dip,” one of Ise’s melodies that I recorded on October 29, 2023.

  11. Tradecraft, Attempted Murder, Perfect Gifts, and the Neighborhood Watch
    Mentions:
    “Neighborhood Watch Details”

  12. Drug Dealers, Intelligence Sharing, Forgiveness, and Angel

    Mentions:

    “Samson and the Sweet, Sweet Taste of Justice”

    Text of Email Sent to LAPD Christmas Eve

    Cosmogony/Apocalypse

  13. Total Blame, Spidey Sense, Ancient Aliens, and Taking the Piss

  14. Straight-Edge Spidey, LAFD, Combo Poisons, and Martin Lawrence

    Mentions:

    Ken Kesey, author of One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest (1962)

    Guy Debord, Comments on the Society of the Spectacle (1988)

    Fredy Perlman, Against His-Story, Against Leviathan (1983)

    Martin Lawrence’s May 1996 arrest

    Dave Chappelle on Martin Lawrence and “stress”

  15. Lookouts, School Zones, 911, Henhouse Foxes and Bad Faith

    Mentions:

    Judy’s Accusatory Texts of January 11, 2024

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024

  16. Performative Orgiastics, Cruisin’, Cyber Pimps, and a Failure to Communicate

    Mentions:

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024
    Ryann’s View of My Psychology (Fall 2023)
    Our Mid–January 2024 Chats About Reunion, etc.

  17. A Parallax View of Welfare Graft and Poverty Pimping: SCHARP and Ideal Program Services

    Mentions:

    California Information Practices Act of 1977

    California Fair Information Practice Principles (“FIPPs”)

    OECD FIPPs

    Dialectical Behavior Therapy

    California Code of Regulations for Mental Health Providers

    The Lanterman Developmental Disabilities Act

    Lanterman Definitions

    Crisis Intervention for the Developmentally Disabled (“Locked Facilities List”)

    Juking Safety Stats in Auto

    March 6, 2024 Open Letter to Regulators on SCHARP Behavioral Health

III. What A Week

  1. Nina Simone, Object Relations, Fin-de-Siècle Vienna, and Transference
    Mentions:
    Melanie Klein, The Psychoanalysis of Children (1932)

    Sigmund Freud, Fragments of an Analysis of a Case of Hysteria (1905)

    “Dora” on Wikipedia

    Otto Kernberg, Hatred, Emptiness and Hope (2023)

    Beatrice Beebe, “Joining Your Baby’s Distress Moments” (2023)

    Beatrice Beebe, “Decoding the Non-Verbal Language of Babies: Part 1” (2019)

    Frank Yeomans, “Transference-Focused Psychotherapy: An Evidence-Based Psychodynamic Therapy for BPD” (2008)

  2. My Total Disillusionment

    Mentions:

    January 30, 2024 Texts with Judy Scypion

  3. Ise’s Safety, Trying to Help, and Going Deep Cover

    Mentions:

    Judy’s “Fox of Crenshaw” Texts

    Texts With Ryann About Cough Medicine

    My Notes For February 1, 2024, Structured Convo

IV. Untangling The Web

V. What Really Happened

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]]><![CDATA[My Total Disillusionment]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/my-total-disillusionmenthttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/my-total-disillusionmentTue, 14 Jan 2025 18:33:49 GMTIn part 3.2, I discover Ryann’s infidelity and shocking deceit, I witness Judy’s utter depravity, and I discover Ryann’s lack of responsibility toward our child.

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This is the real-life, true-crime detective story of how writing Rytius Records (https://www.rytiusrecords.com) helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse, by sending me on a six-month investigation into organized crime in my South Central Los Angeles neighborhood.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: Discussion of suicide and self-harm.

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

Buy Me a Coffee

Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

  9. Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut
    Mentions:

    The Tongva Nation

    Theresa Stewart-Ambo and Kelly Leah Stewart, “From Tovaangar to the University of California, Los Angeles”, American Indian Culture and Research Journal (2023)

    Palm Tree Proletarians

    Accusatory Texts From Judy Scypion

    Mafia State

    LAPD Black Officers’ Association

  10. Fatherhood, Brotherhood, and a Successful Extortion

    Mentions:
    “Skippity Skippity Dip Dip,” one of Ise’s melodies that I recorded on October 29, 2023.

  11. Tradecraft, Attempted Murder, Perfect Gifts, and the Neighborhood Watch
    Mentions:
    “Neighborhood Watch Details”

  12. Drug Dealers, Intelligence Sharing, Forgiveness, and Angel

    Mentions:

    “Samson and the Sweet, Sweet Taste of Justice”

    Text of Email Sent to LAPD Christmas Eve

    Cosmogony/Apocalypse

  13. Total Blame, Spidey Sense, Ancient Aliens, and Taking the Piss

  14. Straight-Edge Spidey, LAFD, Combo Poisons, and Martin Lawrence

    Mentions:

    Ken Kesey, author of One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest (1962)

    Guy Debord, Comments on the Society of the Spectacle (1988)

    Fredy Perlman, Against His-Story, Against Leviathan (1983)

    Martin Lawrence’s May 1996 arrest

    Dave Chappelle on Martin Lawrence and “stress”

  15. Lookouts, School Zones, 911, Henhouse Foxes and Bad Faith

    Mentions:

    Judy’s Accusatory Texts of January 11, 2024

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024

  16. Performative Orgiastics, Cruisin’, Cyber Pimps, and a Failure to Communicate

    Mentions:

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024
    Ryann’s View of My Psychology (Fall 2023)
    Our Mid–January 2024 Chats About Reunion, etc.

  17. A Parallax View of Welfare Graft and Poverty Pimping: SCHARP and Ideal Program Services

    Mentions:

    California Information Practices Act of 1977

    California Fair Information Practice Principles (“FIPPs”)

    OECD FIPPs

    Dialectical Behavior Therapy

    California Code of Regulations for Mental Health Providers

    The Lanterman Developmental Disabilities Act

    Lanterman Definitions

    Crisis Intervention for the Developmentally Disabled (“Locked Facilities List”)

    Juking Safety Stats in Auto

    March 6, 2024 Open Letter to Regulators on SCHARP Behavioral Health

III. What A Week

  1. Nina Simone, Object Relations, Fin-de-Siècle Vienna, and Transference
    Mentions:
    Melanie Klein, The Psychoanalysis of Children (1932)

    Sigmund Freud, Fragments of an Analysis of a Case of Hysteria (1905)

    “Dora” on Wikipedia

    Otto Kernberg, Hatred, Emptiness and Hope (2023)

    Beatrice Beebe, “Joining Your Baby’s Distress Moments” (2023)

    Beatrice Beebe, “Decoding the Non-Verbal Language of Babies: Part 1” (2019)

    Frank Yeomans, “Transference-Focused Psychotherapy: An Evidence-Based Psychodynamic Therapy for BPD” (2008)

  2. My Total Disillusionment

    Mentions:

    January 30, 2024 Texts with Judy Scypion

IV. Untangling The Web

V. What Really Happened

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]]><![CDATA[Nina Simone, Object Relations, Fin-de-Siècle Vienna, and Transference]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/nina-simone-object-relations-finhttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/nina-simone-object-relations-finSat, 11 Jan 2025 00:30:00 GMTIn part 3.1, David tells me to check out Nina Simone’s I Put a Spell On You (1965), and I attend the first day of a psychoanalytic conference on Transference-Focused Therapy, an evidence-based therapy for those with borderline personality disorder and narcissistic personality disorder, which are traditionally the most resistant to treatment.

Buy Rytius Records From Ingram

This is the real-life, true-crime detective story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse, by sending me on a six-month investigation into organized crime in my South Central Los Angeles neighborhood.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: None this time.

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

Buy Me a Coffee

Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

  9. Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut
    Mentions:

    The Tongva Nation

    Theresa Stewart-Ambo and Kelly Leah Stewart, “From Tovaangar to the University of California, Los Angeles”, American Indian Culture and Research Journal (2023)

    Palm Tree Proletarians

    Accusatory Texts From Judy Scypion

    Mafia State

    LAPD Black Officers’ Association

  10. Fatherhood, Brotherhood, and a Successful Extortion

    Mentions:
    “Skippity Skippity Dip Dip,” one of Ise’s melodies that I recorded on October 29, 2023.

  11. Tradecraft, Attempted Murder, Perfect Gifts, and the Neighborhood Watch
    Mentions:
    “Neighborhood Watch Details”

  12. Drug Dealers, Intelligence Sharing, Forgiveness, and Angel

    Mentions:

    “Samson and the Sweet, Sweet Taste of Justice”

    Text of Email Sent to LAPD Christmas Eve

    Cosmogony/Apocalypse

  13. Total Blame, Spidey Sense, Ancient Aliens, and Taking the Piss

  14. Straight-Edge Spidey, LAFD, Combo Poisons, and Martin Lawrence

    Mentions:

    Ken Kesey, author of One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest (1962)

    Guy Debord, Comments on the Society of the Spectacle (1988)

    Fredy Perlman, Against His-Story, Against Leviathan (1983)

    Martin Lawrence’s May 1996 arrest

    Dave Chappelle on Martin Lawrence and “stress”

  15. Lookouts, School Zones, 911, Henhouse Foxes and Bad Faith

    Mentions:

    Judy’s Accusatory Texts of January 11, 2024

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024

  16. Performative Orgiastics, Cruisin’, Cyber Pimps, and a Failure to Communicate

    Mentions:

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024
    Ryann’s View of My Psychology (Fall 2023)
    Our Mid–January 2024 Chats About Reunion, etc.

  17. A Parallax View of Welfare Graft and Poverty Pimping: SCHARP and Ideal Program Services

    Mentions:

    California Information Practices Act of 1977

    California Fair Information Practice Principles (“FIPPs”)

    OECD FIPPs

    Dialectical Behavior Therapy

    California Code of Regulations for Mental Health Providers

    The Lanterman Developmental Disabilities Act

    Lanterman Definitions

    Crisis Intervention for the Developmentally Disabled (“Locked Facilities List”)

    Juking Safety Stats in Auto

    March 6, 2024 Open Letter to Regulators on SCHARP Behavioral Health

III. What A Week

  1. Nina Simone, Object Relations, Fin-de-Siècle Vienna, and Transference
    Mentions:
    Melanie Klein, The Psychoanalysis of Children (1932)

    Sigmund Freud, Fragments of an Analysis of a Case of Hysteria (1905)

    “Dora” on Wikipedia

    Otto Kernberg, Hatred, Emptiness and Hope (2023)

    Beatrice Beebe, “Joining Your Baby’s Distress Moments” (2023)

    Beatrice Beebe, “Decoding the Non-Verbal Language of Babies: Part 1” (2019)

    Frank Yeomans, “Transference-Focused Psychotherapy: An Evidence-Based Psychodynamic Therapy for BPD” (2008)

IV. Untangling The Web

V. What Really Happened

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]]><![CDATA[A Parallax View of Welfare Graft and Poverty Pimping: SCHARP and Ideal Program Services]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/a-parallax-view-of-welfare-grafthttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/a-parallax-view-of-welfare-graftFri, 03 Jan 2025 19:21:30 GMTIn part 2.17, I visit Ryann’s recommended mental-health clinics, SCHARP Behavioral Health and Ideal Program Services; I find insecure business practices, incompetence, and class-tiered service at SCHARP; I find an unauthorized locked facility, fake names, and safety fraud at Ideal Program Services; and, in the absence of county or state regulation, I found organized crime corruption at both.

Buy Rytius Records From Amazon

This is the story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: None this time.

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

Buy Rytius Records From Ingram

Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

  9. Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut
    Mentions:

    The Tongva Nation

    Theresa Stewart-Ambo and Kelly Leah Stewart, “From Tovaangar to the University of California, Los Angeles”, American Indian Culture and Research Journal (2023)

    Palm Tree Proletarians

    Accusatory Texts From Judy Scypion

    Mafia State

    LAPD Black Officers’ Association

  10. Fatherhood, Brotherhood, and a Successful Extortion

    Mentions:
    “Skippity Skippity Dip Dip,” one of Ise’s melodies that I recorded on October 29, 2023.

  11. Tradecraft, Attempted Murder, Perfect Gifts, and the Neighborhood Watch
    Mentions:
    “Neighborhood Watch Details”

  12. Drug Dealers, Intelligence Sharing, Forgiveness, and Angel

    Mentions:

    “Samson and the Sweet, Sweet Taste of Justice”

    Text of Email Sent to LAPD Christmas Eve

    Cosmogony/Apocalypse

  13. Total Blame, Spidey Sense, Ancient Aliens, and Taking the Piss

  14. Straight-Edge Spidey, LAFD, Combo Poisons, and Martin Lawrence

    Mentions:

    Ken Kesey, author of One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest (1962)

    Guy Debord, Comments on the Society of the Spectacle (1988)

    Fredy Perlman, Against His-Story, Against Leviathan (1983)

    Martin Lawrence’s May 1996 arrest

    Dave Chappelle on Martin Lawrence and “stress”

  15. Lookouts, School Zones, 911, Henhouse Foxes and Bad Faith

    Mentions:

    Judy’s Accusatory Texts of January 11, 2024

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024

  16. Performative Orgiastics, Cruisin’, Cyber Pimps, and a Failure to Communicate

    Mentions:

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024
    Ryann’s View of My Psychology (Fall 2023)
    Our Mid–January 2024 Chats About Reunion, etc.

  17. A Parallax View of Welfare Graft and Poverty Pimping: SCHARP and Ideal Program Services

    Mentions:

    California Information Practices Act of 1977

    California Fair Information Practice Principles (“FIPPs”)

    OECD FIPPs

    Dialectical Behavior Therapy

    California Code of Regulations for Mental Health Providers

    The Lanterman Developmental Disabilities Act

    Lanterman Definitions

    Crisis Intervention for the Developmentally Disabled (“Locked Facilities List”)

    Juking Safety Stats in Auto

    March 6, 2024 Open Letter to Regulators on SCHARP Behavioral Health

III. Untangling the Web

IV. What Really Happened

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]]><![CDATA[Performative Orgiastics, Cruisin’, Cyber Pimps, and a Failure to Communicate]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/performative-orgiastics-cruisin-cyberhttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/performative-orgiastics-cruisin-cyberThu, 19 Dec 2024 06:07:32 GMTIn part 2.16, Ryann recommends I take a special route to MLK, on which I encounter a wild sex party, and discover that I am not alone on the neighborhood watch. I meet a man whom I believe to be a male prostitute, fail disastrously at undercover work, and struggle to communicate with Ryann, through torrential blasts of blame and accusation.

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This is the story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: None this time!

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

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Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

  9. Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut
    Mentions:

    The Tongva Nation

    Theresa Stewart-Ambo and Kelly Leah Stewart, “From Tovaangar to the University of California, Los Angeles”, American Indian Culture and Research Journal (2023)

    Palm Tree Proletarians

    Accusatory Texts From Judy Scypion

    Mafia State

    LAPD Black Officers’ Association

  10. Fatherhood, Brotherhood, and a Successful Extortion

    Mentions:
    “Skippity Skippity Dip Dip,” one of Ise’s melodies that I recorded on October 29, 2023.

  11. Tradecraft, Attempted Murder, Perfect Gifts, and the Neighborhood Watch
    Mentions:
    “Neighborhood Watch Details”

  12. Drug Dealers, Intelligence Sharing, Forgiveness, and Angel

    Mentions:

    “Samson and the Sweet, Sweet Taste of Justice”

    Text of Email Sent to LAPD Christmas Eve

    Cosmogony/Apocalypse

  13. Total Blame, Spidey Sense, Ancient Aliens, and Taking the Piss

  14. Straight-Edge Spidey, LAFD, Combo Poisons, and Martin Lawrence

    Mentions:

    Ken Kesey, author of One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest (1962)

    Guy Debord, Comments on the Society of the Spectacle (1988)

    Fredy Perlman, Against His-Story, Against Leviathan (1983)

    Martin Lawrence’s May 1996 arrest

    Dave Chappelle on Martin Lawrence and “stress”

  15. Lookouts, School Zones, 911, Henhouse Foxes and Bad Faith

    Mentions:

    Judy’s Accusatory Texts of January 11, 2024

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024

  16. Performative Orgiastics, Cruisin’, Cyber Pimps, and a Failure to Communicate

    Mentions:

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024
    Ryann’s View of My Psychology (Fall 2023)
    Our Mid–January 2024 Chats About Reunion, etc.

III. What Really Happened

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]]><![CDATA[Lookouts, School Zones, 911, Henhouse Foxes and Bad Faith]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/lookouts-school-zones-911-henhousehttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/lookouts-school-zones-911-henhouseWed, 11 Dec 2024 17:22:42 GMTIn part 2.15, I see the criminal communications network out on the street, I discover that the sex-industry infrastructure extends even to the elementary school perimeter, I try to call 911 for a woman in distress, Ise gets very sick, Judy calls me a murderer, and Ryann sets me up to fail.

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This is the story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: None this time!

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

Buy Rytius Records From Ingram

Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

  9. Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut
    Mentions:

    The Tongva Nation

    Theresa Stewart-Ambo and Kelly Leah Stewart, “From Tovaangar to the University of California, Los Angeles”, American Indian Culture and Research Journal (2023)

    Palm Tree Proletarians

    Accusatory Texts From Judy Scypion

    Mafia State

    LAPD Black Officers’ Association

  10. Fatherhood, Brotherhood, and a Successful Extortion

    Mentions:
    “Skippity Skippity Dip Dip,” one of Ise’s melodies that I recorded on October 29, 2023.

  11. Tradecraft, Attempted Murder, Perfect Gifts, and the Neighborhood Watch
    Mentions:
    “Neighborhood Watch Details”

  12. Drug Dealers, Intelligence Sharing, Forgiveness, and Angel

    Mentions:

    “Samson and the Sweet, Sweet Taste of Justice”

    Text of Email Sent to LAPD Christmas Eve

    Cosmogony/Apocalypse

  13. Total Blame, Spidey Sense, Ancient Aliens, and Taking the Piss

  14. Straight-Edge Spidey, LAFD, Combo Poisons, and Martin Lawrence

    Mentions:

    Ken Kesey, author of One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest (1962)

    Guy Debord, Comments on the Society of the Spectacle (1988)

    Fredy Perlman, Against His-Story, Against Leviathan (1983)

    Martin Lawrence’s May 1996 arrest

    Dave Chappelle on Martin Lawrence and “stress”

  15. Lookouts, School Zones, 911, Henhouse Foxes and Bad Faith

    Mentions:

    Judy’s Accusatory Texts of January 11, 2024

    My Letter to Ryann of January 15, 2024

III. What Really Happened

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]]><![CDATA[Straight-Edge Spidey, LAFD, Combo Poisons, and Martin Lawrence]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/straight-edge-spidey-lafd-combo-poisonshttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/straight-edge-spidey-lafd-combo-poisonsMon, 09 Dec 2024 19:34:25 GMTIn part 2.14, I explain why I dropped out of college, how I started smoking, and why I switched to vaping; I visit our local fire station as part of my investigation, and I explain how I ultimately broke my addiction to nicotine.

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This is the story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: None this time!

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

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Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

  9. Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut
    Mentions:

    The Tongva Nation

    Theresa Stewart-Ambo and Kelly Leah Stewart, “From Tovaangar to the University of California, Los Angeles”, American Indian Culture and Research Journal (2023)

    Palm Tree Proletarians

    Accusatory Texts From Judy Scypion

    Mafia State

    LAPD Black Officers’ Association

  10. Fatherhood, Brotherhood, and a Successful Extortion

    Mentions:
    “Skippity Skippity Dip Dip,” one of Ise’s melodies that I recorded on October 29, 2023.

  11. Tradecraft, Attempted Murder, Perfect Gifts, and the Neighborhood Watch
    Mentions:
    “Neighborhood Watch Details”

  12. Drug Dealers, Intelligence Sharing, Forgiveness, and Angel

    Mentions:

    “Samson and the Sweet, Sweet Taste of Justice”

    Text of Email Sent to LAPD Christmas Eve

    Cosmogony/Apocalypse

  13. Total Blame, Spidey Sense, Ancient Aliens, and Taking the Piss

  14. Straight-Edge Spidey, LAFD, Combo Poisons, and Martin Lawrence

    Mentions:

    Ken Kesey, author of One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest (1962)

    Guy Debord, Comments on the Society of the Spectacle (1988)

    Fredy Perlman, Against His-Story, Against Leviathan (1983)

    Martin Lawrence’s May 1996 arrest

    Dave Chappelle on Martin Lawrence and “stress”

III. What Really Happened

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]]><![CDATA[Total Blame, Spidey Sense, Ancient Aliens, and Taking the Piss]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/total-blame-spidey-sense-ancienthttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/total-blame-spidey-sense-ancientThu, 05 Dec 2024 17:59:12 GMTIn part 2.13, Ryann blames me for everything, but I feel safety returning, so we set a return date; I uncover some details about animal abuse in human trafficking, and I have several notable adventures out on the street, doing the neighborhood watch.

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This is the story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: None this time!

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

Buy Rytius Records From Ingram

Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

  9. Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut
    Mentions:

    The Tongva Nation

    Theresa Stewart-Ambo and Kelly Leah Stewart, “From Tovaangar to the University of California, Los Angeles”, American Indian Culture and Research Journal (2023)

    Palm Tree Proletarians

    Accusatory Texts From Judy Scypion

    Mafia State

    LAPD Black Officers’ Association

  10. Fatherhood, Brotherhood, and a Successful Extortion

    Mentions:
    “Skippity Skippity Dip Dip,” one of Ise’s melodies that I recorded on October 29, 2023.

  11. Tradecraft, Attempted Murder, Perfect Gifts, and the Neighborhood Watch
    Mentions:
    “Neighborhood Watch Details”

  12. Drug Dealers, Intelligence Sharing, Forgiveness, and Angel

    Mentions:

    “Samson and the Sweet, Sweet Taste of Justice”

    Text of Email Sent to LAPD Christmas Eve

    Cosmogony/Apocalypse

  13. Total Blame, Spidey Sense, Ancient Aliens, and Taking the Piss

III. What Really Happened

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]]><![CDATA[Drug Dealers, Intelligence Sharing, Forgiveness, and Angel]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/drug-dealers-intelligence-sharinghttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/drug-dealers-intelligence-sharingTue, 03 Dec 2024 20:17:33 GMTIn part 2.12, I meet a group of drug dealers, I update LAPD on my investigative efforts, Ise’s discipline suffers as he suffers from isolation, Judy makes things more difficult, Ryann rejects forgiveness for Judy, and my neighbor Angel gives me an unexpected rundown on other ethnic extortion rackets around town.

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This is the story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: None this time!

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

Buy Rytius Records From Amazon

Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

  9. Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut
    Mentions:

    The Tongva Nation

    Theresa Stewart-Ambo and Kelly Leah Stewart, “From Tovaangar to the University of California, Los Angeles”, American Indian Culture and Research Journal (2023)

    Palm Tree Proletarians

    Accusatory Texts From Judy Scypion

    Mafia State

    LAPD Black Officers’ Association

  10. Fatherhood, Brotherhood, and a Successful Extortion

    Mentions:
    “Skippity Skippity Dip Dip,” one of Ise’s melodies that I recorded on October 29, 2023.

  11. Tradecraft, Attempted Murder, Perfect Gifts, and the Neighborhood Watch
    Mentions:
    “Neighborhood Watch Details”

  12. Drug Dealers, Intelligence Sharing, Forgiveness, and Angel

    Mentions:

    “Samson and the Sweet, Sweet Taste of Justice”

    Text of Email Sent to LAPD Christmas Eve

    Cosmogony/Apocalypse

III. What Really Happened

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]]><![CDATA[Tradecraft, Attempted Murder, Perfect Gifts, and the Neighborhood Watch]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/tradecraft-attempted-murder-perfecthttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/tradecraft-attempted-murder-perfectThu, 21 Nov 2024 21:21:10 GMTBuy Rytius Records on Ingram

In part 2.11, I get followed, I am almost run off the road twice, I receive an entirely too-perfect gift, I go back out to take pictures, and I start recruiting for the neighborhood watch on Christmas Eve.

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This is the story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: Attempted murder.

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

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Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

  9. Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut
    Mentions:

    The Tongva Nation

    Theresa Stewart-Ambo and Kelly Leah Stewart, “From Tovaangar to the University of California, Los Angeles”, American Indian Culture and Research Journal (2023)

    Palm Tree Proletarians

    Accusatory Texts From Judy Scypion

    Mafia State

    LAPD Black Officers’ Association

  10. Fatherhood, Brotherhood, and a Successful Extortion

    Mentions:
    “Skippity Skippity Dip Dip,” one of Ise’s melodies that I recorded on October 29, 2023.

  11. Tradecraft, Attempted Murder, Perfect Gifts, and the Neighborhood Watch
    Mentions:
    “Neighborhood Watch Details”

III. What Really Happened

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]]><![CDATA[Fatherhood, Brotherhood, and a Successful Extortion]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/fatherhood-brotherhood-and-a-successfulhttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/fatherhood-brotherhood-and-a-successfulThu, 21 Nov 2024 05:12:56 GMTBuy Rytius Records on Amazon

In part 2.10, I try to comfort my son Ise, I grow closer to David Bludso, my relationship with my little brother grows even more strained, and I am finally successfully extorted.

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This is the story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: Discussion of possible childhood sexual abuse.

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

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Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

  9. Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut
    Mentions:

    The Tongva Nation

    Theresa Stewart-Ambo and Kelly Leah Stewart, “From Tovaangar to the University of California, Los Angeles”, American Indian Culture and Research Journal (2023)

    Palm Tree Proletarians

    Accusatory Texts From Judy Scypion

    Mafia State

    LAPD Black Officers’ Association

  10. Fatherhood, Brotherhood, and a Successful Extortion

    Mentions:
    “Skippity Skippity Dip Dip,” one of Ise’s melodies that I recorded on October 29, 2023.

III. What Really Happened

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]]><![CDATA[Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/weaving-wisdom-ultimatums-crime-ashttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/weaving-wisdom-ultimatums-crime-asWed, 20 Nov 2024 04:08:29 GMTBuy Rytius Records on Ingram

In part 2.9, I learn about Tongva/Gabrieleño basketweaving, I send Ryann her iMac so she can write her children’s books, she gives me a deadline ultimatum for returning to LA, I meet Retired LAPD Detective David Bludso, RIP, and I start my on-the-ground investigation, taking pictures around the Jungle, not unlike a certain Peter Parker.

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This is the story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: None this time.

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

Buy Rytius Records on Amazon

Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

  9. Weaving Wisdom, Ultimatums, Crime as Control, and Peter Parker’s Debut
    Mentions:

    The Tongva Nation

    Theresa Stewart-Ambo and Kelly Leah Stewart, “From Tovaangar to the University of California, Los Angeles”, American Indian Culture and Research Journal (2023)

    Palm Tree Proletarians

    Accusatory Texts From Judy Scypion

    Mafia State

    LAPD Black Officers’ Association

III. What Really Happened

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]]><![CDATA[Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/seclusion-intimate-betrayal-selfishnesshttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/seclusion-intimate-betrayal-selfishnessFri, 15 Nov 2024 21:52:58 GMTBuy Rytius Records on Amazon

In part 2.8, I withdraw into abrupt seclusion to understand my lack of joy with Ryann’s plans to return, I figure out a way to forgive my mother, police come into the apartment unbidden, I develop a newfound admiration and respect for Ryann’s courage, I am completely confused by her responses to me, I am worried for our son Ise, and I put my fear of cyber attacks aside.

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This is the story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: None this time.

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

Buy Rytius Records on Ingram

Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

  8. Seclusion, Intimate Betrayal, Selfishness, and Zombie Girl
    Mentions:
    Phyllis Trible, Texts of Terror (1984)
    A Review of Trible’s Texts of Terror

    “Samson: The World-Destroying Weakness of Strength Unmastered by Love”

III. What Really Happened

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]]><![CDATA[Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/church-kompromat-carol-gilligan-andhttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/church-kompromat-carol-gilligan-andThu, 14 Nov 2024 21:54:34 GMTBuy Rytius Records on Ingram

In part 2.7, I become a member of the Armenian Apostolic Church, Belsidus Incorporated is compromised, a seminar with Carol Gilligan helps me to quit using pornography, and Ryann wants to buy tickets to come back home!

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This is the story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: None this time!

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

Buy Rytius Records on Amazon

Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:
    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”
    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

  7. Church, Kompromat, Carol Gilligan, and Reunion

    Mentions:
    Carol Gilligan, “In a Different Voice: Women's Conceptions of Self and Morality,” Harvard Educational Review, vol. 47, no. 4, November 1977
    In A Different Voice (1982)
    Video Seminar: In A Human Voice (2022)
    Francine Prose’s New York Times Magazine book review of Making Connections: The Relational Worlds of Adolescent Girls at Emma Willard School (1990)
    “Thoughts on Barbie”

III. What Really Happened

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]]><![CDATA[Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/miss-becky-home-improvement-provocationshttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/miss-becky-home-improvement-provocationsFri, 08 Nov 2024 21:26:37 GMTBuy Rytius Records on Amazon

In part 2.6, I begin to suspect Becky Donaldson of pressuring Ryann, I see signs of extortion in the Dons, I look for a psychotherapist, and I encounter an endless series of provocations, which seem to indicate that I am being followed or surveilled.

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This is the story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: None this time!

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

Buy Rytius Records on Ingram

Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

  6. Miss Becky, Home Improvement, Provocations, and Paranoia

    Mentions:

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (2023)

    “Thoughts on Barbie”

    “SCHARP Behavioral Health”

III. What Really Happened

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]]><![CDATA[Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure]]>https://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/righteous-records-tenants-rightshttps://www.newdithyrambia.net/p/righteous-records-tenants-rightsThu, 07 Nov 2024 20:38:45 GMTBuy Rytius Records on Ingram

In part 2.5, I take up a search for righteous records relating to my father’s death, I attempt to organize a tenant group to sue our landlord, and I finally recognize the Jungle’s sex-industry infrastructure, hidden in plain sight.

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This is the story of how writing Rytius Records helped me to heal traumas from childhood sexual abuse and thereby enabled me to escape contemporary narcissistic abuse.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: Discussion of pimping, sex trafficking, sex industry.

The inspiration for this story comes from Valou, The Cool Mommy, at @Blueprintstothe5dkingdom, who helped me to build up the courage to tell it.

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Get In the Boat

I. Things Fall Apart

  1. Dead Fathers, College Sweethearts, Art, Addiction, and Childhood

    Mentions:
    Rytius Records
    “The Last Days of Muzak”

  2. Gender, Soulless Beasts, The Ancient Near East, and AI

    Mentions:
    Origin of Plot of Rytius Records

    The Algebra of Strength and Devotion (the first stab at our “new covenant between men and women”)
    Photography
    Plato’s Timaeus
    Myth of Atrahasis
    Epic of Gilgamesh
    Descent of Ishtar
    Enuma Elish (Marduk and Tiamat)

  3. Támar, Prince, A Divine Revelation, Burnout, and Extortion

    Mentions:

    IA and the Siren Robots, How Am I Not Myself? (2023)
    “Feeling Yourself Under Your Sundress” (this is not rated X, and it is not pornography, but it is NSFW erotic dance)

    “Street Ho”: I decided not to upload these rudimentary vocal sketches, because I already did the vocal sketches in the video.

  4. Strike!, Creeps, Spiders, and the “Just Blacks”

    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)
    Weird Emails

  5. A Bad Trip, Domestic Violence, Brain Parasites, and Flight

II. Detective Damastes, or, How I Became Spider-Man

  1. The Flood, Oblivion, Math, Gender, Sacrifice, and the State
    Mentions:
    “The Epistemological Problem” (rough voice memo of my proposal to Steve Caldwell and Eric Hammond to support my AI research)

  2. Social Machines and ℝeality Testing

  3. Perverse Family Dynamics, Legal Hijinks, Harassment and Intimidation

  4. I Almost Get Arrested, Gender Abolition In Prison, and the Possibility of Romance Behind Bars

  5. Righteous Records, Tenant’s Rights, and Sex-Industry Infrastructure

III. What Really Happened

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